Music

I had a concert last Thursday. And it hurt.

My heart was ripped

in two.

Shredded by dissonance

and complexity,

That I didn't get to be a part of.

I sang carols,

they sang beauty and

sadness

and

intensity.

Please, make it stop.

I don't want the pain

of remembering

what it was like

to be

on

top.

Take Comfort

Jeremiah 31: 3-4

I have loved you with an everlasting love;
I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
I will build you up again,
and you, Virgin Israel, will be rebuilt.
Again you will take up your timbrels
and go out to dance with the joyful.

Life is hard. It isn't always fun. But He will ensure you get through it all. Even walking around campus in the pouring rain.

Finally

I've learned a lesson this past year. A rather important one that keeps me up past the witching hour and beyond. Some people are not meant to be your friend forever. Some, at the time, seem to be your match made in heaven. It just isn't true. And I learned that some people I will love forever, but for the most part, people are dispensable. No one wants to say the rather harsh truth, but it can't be denied. I'm almost happy I learned this lesson at such an important part of my life because I can now leave those that ultimately don't matter behind me. I'm ready to stop fretting. I'm moving past those that I clash with. I'm done.

All Wrapped Up

Officer's meeting/party/bitchfest was simply delightful. We're a fun bunch. Though, I totally got lost in the maze of townhomes that are in that area.

Tomorrow is the big counsellors lunch. I just baked all the breadsticks, they smell delicious. I only ate one. I swear, just two. Really, just three. I dressed them up a bit, no one likes a bland breadstick.

I went to Toys 'R' Us for the first time in my entire life today with Jonathan. I was overwhelmed. I think I may want to play with Barbies again. Stupid plastic. Then we went to Olive Garden. Yum. Old people stared at us. No clue as to why, maybe because my laugh is obnoxiously loud?

I wear a size 9.5 in TOMS. Now I just have to fanagle myself a pair.

Choir people make me feel all warm and cozy. They make me smile, and laugh, and curse just like good friends should.

I know I seem a bit scatterbrained, but I'm tired and our alteration lady poked me about a billion times with pins today. Pick-up next Thursday! Don't let me forget!

Priceless Picks

I have a brand new obsession. Not only does it involve my iPhone, it involves my favorite bit of plastic. Priceless Picks is a pretty nifty app from MasterCard that allows you to find that perfect cup of coffee or that one bench at the park that is just meant for reading a good ol' romance novel and tag it. Then, when you're somewhere, looking for a pick-me-up, you just look around you for what other people have tagged. I'm obsessed. I've tagged three things in one day.

On another note, I'm slowly getting ready for senior year. I'm ready to see my friends, ready to finish Invisible Man, and ready to get a move on with the decisions that'll impact my life forever and ever.

Heavy.

Have a great Thursday! Mine will be filled with a certain mexican, an evil asian lady with pins, and a certain Hittmaker.

Prudish To A Point

I am not a prude. I am not a prude. I am not a prude.

Sometimes.

But, I saw this little thing and I thought it'd be fun, or at least more fun than reading Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison.

Rules:

- Write 5 things that make you feel sexy
- Post a pic (only IF you dare)
- Pass it on to 5 lovely bloggers (Which I'm not doing.)

1. Monokinis. They are so sexy, without showing so much skin you want to hide in a cabana all day. I have a lovely hot pink one that Raina helped me pick out and it has gotten a surprising amount of use this summer.

If I had the body, I'd wear this one!

2. Heels. I'd wear heels everyday. I love them. The only minor problem with being a germaphobe in heels, you end up touching hand rails that disgusting and germy high schoolers touch all day. So, I opt out most days, but I really do love them. I spent an entire afternoon in the spring looking for purple heels for a dress, I couldn't find a single pair! Now, they're all the rage for fall! Here are an especially cute pair!

3. Apple products. I find them sleek and just...oh, so perfect. I'll take one of these for graduation!

4. A guy with a dog. I think it is just the most charming thing so see a guy playing with his dog at the park.

5. I find the fifties so sexy. Maybe MadMen is having that effect on me, but I just find that era so fascinating.

By the way, I love Invisible Man. It happens to be an intriguing read, but it gets horribly depressing at times and hysterical the next page. I'm not meant for emotional rollercoasters!

Off-Topic Bits

Yes, I've interrupted my 'feelings,' solely because they're a lot harder than you'd ever want to admit. Also, I got an iPhone and have fallen in love with the camera on it, so this will now signal the beginning of a real blog that lets you follow me around as I try to stay alive and entertained. 

So, here is a picture of my one hundred year old grandfather and me out to dinner, notice the nose: every one that's related to him, and those before, have that nose.