Music

I had a concert last Thursday. And it hurt.

My heart was ripped

in two.

Shredded by dissonance

and complexity,

That I didn't get to be a part of.

I sang carols,

they sang beauty and

sadness

and

intensity.

Please, make it stop.

I don't want the pain

of remembering

what it was like

to be

on

top.

Take Comfort

Jeremiah 31: 3-4

I have loved you with an everlasting love;
I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
I will build you up again,
and you, Virgin Israel, will be rebuilt.
Again you will take up your timbrels
and go out to dance with the joyful.

Life is hard. It isn't always fun. But He will ensure you get through it all. Even walking around campus in the pouring rain.

Finally

I've learned a lesson this past year. A rather important one that keeps me up past the witching hour and beyond. Some people are not meant to be your friend forever. Some, at the time, seem to be your match made in heaven. It just isn't true. And I learned that some people I will love forever, but for the most part, people are dispensable. No one wants to say the rather harsh truth, but it can't be denied. I'm almost happy I learned this lesson at such an important part of my life because I can now leave those that ultimately don't matter behind me. I'm ready to stop fretting. I'm moving past those that I clash with. I'm done.